Thursday, September 17, 2009
My life sucks
Yo. This is my first post.I'll tell you the reason why did I put that title into my first post on my first blog.Well, it's true. My life do suck.I have to study so much, 10 hours a day, 5 days a week. I didn't even include the time when I study with my tutor. You see, I'm a computer nerd and I don't usually have free time much. So when I just arrive home, I dash to the computer to play games or online reading manga. As I say, I don't have much free time so I play as much as I can. My mom see that, she scold me. I don't get it. Why'd she like doing that so much. It's like a circle. Come home->play too much-> get scold by mom-> ignore her-> go out-> play again. Just like that but spinning around. But I don't get one thing, lately, every time she yells at me, I feel like my heart is throbbing somehow. My mom always say I have to be a good student. But what 'bout my lil brother, last year he was a normal student, NOT good. Why didn't she yell at him? My big bro too, he fell the first semester last year. It's not like that I hate or jealous them or something. I just think it's unfair. I've keeping my grades high, being a good student for 6 years and when I just wanna go shopping or dye my hair, the answer is always 'no'.Study that much, get yelled that much, I don't see the point of living anymore. I even think that if I die, nobody'd cry for me. I think all I want now is a flu or a light accident to have a long vacation. I stressed out too much now. When I feel lonely, I don't even know who to share with, just hide in the corner and cry, cry til I satisfied. I don't even have friends, bitches and bastards all around me, 2-faces-dogs are everywhere. I start to feel I'm lonely, even I laugh a lot, feel happy, but I don't think it's enough. Sometimes, just one sentence of yelling of my parents could make me wanna die....
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Haha.. you remind me of the old me... my mom's the same. You see, I have a 'lil bro just like you do.. I always get bitched at by parents. But not my 'lil bro.
ReplyDeleteJust hang in there.. sooner or later, you'll find yourself surrounded by friends. You're too young to die. Just live your life, laugh and do alot of whatever you have fun doing. Forget about the problem at home and shit. Screw them.. this is your life, not theirs. They have no right to tell you what to do. (Well, maybe they do.. but that's not the point.)
Yes, life sucks... but it has some good sides to it.. you just have to find it.
So yeah.. don't give up life yet. You're just twelve and your life's just startin' You know.. if you're really at you're limit, just tell them that you don't want to do it anymore... maybe, just maybe, they'll shut up and.. listen to what you have to say.
-Fret, that awesome guy. xD
too bad, I already try that, it keeps repeatin like that.
ReplyDeleteKeep trying then.
ReplyDeleteIt is common, i do exprience it too.
ReplyDeleteBut there is nothing we can do.
just look at it at another perpective.
You might see things differently.
You are at least better than me.
I got bullied in school, and at that time
i felt my parent didn't care about me, they didn't understand. I faced it all alone.
i got over it, so can you.
OMG !!!ppl teenage sucks , I know but you will get thru it . d thing about dealing wid parents is to be confident, not over-confident , which is the mistake most of youngsters do. lil'brat, bcoz u get get good grades, ur mum expects a whole lot more frm u than ur bros..its like u r her only hope of being the proud parent wid her frds n show u off. the best thing to do is deal wid her wid logic. make a time-table with study n hobby time when u want it n tell her that u need to refresh urself to study better. most parents fall for that n in real life it atually works, i was a good student too :P beleive me if u dont waste ur time not studying now , it can be shit later...better to avoid that;P
ReplyDeletealso jap jap animation..NEVER STAND FOR NE BULLYING !!!!!if u do it once it will happen to u always .......u need to be more confident n cool abt urself ......hit back , complain to teachers, play pranks on them......but dont just take wat they dish out to u !
older sis